Entries for May, 2004

May 1st, 2004

mother's month

sa lahat ng ina at nagpapakaina buwan natin to...mabuhay!!!!
Posted by FAITH20 at 09:31 PM | FAITHFULL

May 3rd, 2004

ako ba yun?

kung ako yun mglakas loob ka na
hindi kita bibiguin harharhar!
Posted by FAITH20 at 06:57 PM | 4 VICTORIOUS

May 6th, 2004

JUNK GMA!!!!

tapusin na ang palabas
guntingin ang mga pisi
ng pagsasapuppet ni GMA
sa mga kano

i boykot ang pgbili ng
last full show ticket ni GMA
na parang pito-pitong pelikula
prinodyus mula sa kaban
ng bayan

sawa na ba kayo?
panahon na ng pagbabago
Currently feeling: agit
Posted by FAITH20 at 10:51 PM | 1 VICTORIOUS

May 11th, 2004

according to my interview

why do they vote for FPJ

(aacdg to ranking)
1. feel lng nila
2. he might uplift their status
3. they can identify with him being not educated
4. political belongingness
5. tired of trapos
6. he is good looking
7. a good puppet
8. he never dies (wahehehe may sumagot talaga nito)
Currently feeling: windang
Posted by FAITH20 at 09:32 PM | FAITHFULL

frustration ko sa indelible ink

maaga ako gumising nuong May 10 kc gnicing ako sabay sabay daw kmi mg-vovote ng parents ko at mga tito ko para hindi sumabay sa madaming tao...
eh di go ako...

pg dating sa precint alam na namin kung saan kasi nauna dun ang mga kasama namin sa bahay...

ako yung nauna sa pila hindi ko sinasabi name ko nakahanda na. gustong-gusto ko pa man ding sabihin yung number ko kagaya ng taong nauna sa akin...pumirma na ako tapos ng thumbmark... nakaready na ang kamay ko na madumihan ng indelible ink ang sabi nung teacher huwag na daw kc baka madumihan kamay ko...??????? ano ba yun at pati na din sa buong angkan ko...

tinanong ko sa mom ko bkit di kmi nlagyan...nahiya daw yung teacher...helloooo
mgpipilit sana ako na mgpalagay pero sige ok lng bsta mabilang boto ko...sa tito luvy ko, sa tito eling ko, sa pinsan ko na si jv, sa anak ng bayan at higit sa lahat sa crush ko wahehehehe

ito mga binoto ko

president: bro. eddie villanueva
vp: loren

senators:
gatmaytan(yung blind na lawyer) bilib ako sa kanya at hindi dahil naawa ako
carlos "caloy" padilla kasi sayang pagod ko sa pgsupervise ng pagdiddikit ng campaign materials niya kaya sinulit ko na (tsaka kamag-anak eh *pabulong)
gordon member siya concon noon kasama ng lolo ko
pia cayetano bata pa...mukhang magtataguyod ng batas para sa kabataan
joson actually napilitan lng kasi kababayan at malapit sa family namin pero ayoko sana hehehehe
Currently feeling: gustong nakawin yung ink
Posted by FAITH20 at 10:24 PM | 4 VICTORIOUS

May 12th, 2004

gawin niyo to kasi sasara pwet niyo pg hindi

I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.
Posted by FAITH20 at 10:05 PM | 8 VICTORIOUS

May 13th, 2004

sapul!!!!

what if you fall in love with your friend? : (




Do you have a close friend from the opposite sex?
I wonder if this ever happened to you, but they
say this happens a lot of times to ladies, that
the deep but unromantic friendly affection you
feel for a man can very easily be transformed
into a compelling dramatic, romantic love.


You can't seem to tell your heart to switch gears
or to stop your feeling at a certain point. When
a man starts spending time with you, supporting
you, giving of himself, becoming involved in your
life, your hearts sometimes can't help falling in
love with him in the process. Things are fine if
he's falling in love with you, too. But what if
he isn't? You probably don't want the intense
feeling to develop. It becomes difficult for you
to keep the closeness and the friendship.


So, should you suppress your feelings and get
back to the easy relationship you used to have?
Should you stop seeing him because it is too
painful? Should you cry and be angry or get
bitter because he made you fall in love with him
and had no intention of following through on it?
Should you just own it inside and try to pretend
it isn't there so you won't scare him anyway?
What will you do?


Once your care for him has grown beyond a
sisterly affection to a deeper love, how can you
suddenly empty out some of that feeling unless
you lie to yourself? If you stop seeing each
other, it avoids the problems, but it doesn't
solve it, and you will not grow from it, or learn
whatever it is that the Lord is trying to teach
you through that friendship.


So, why does this happen? These feeling actually
result from expectations. Expectations of having
the relationship led somewhere, of being love, of
being fulfilled, of being protected and
cherished, of being cared for in a special way.
expectations which rob a relationship of
spontaneity and unselfconsciousness and make us
inordinately preoccupied with ourselves and an
imagined, hoped for future.


These expectations rob us of the freedom to enjoy
each other unselfishly, as well as the ability to
love each other with truly agape love. You start
seeking your own satisfaction, rather that the
other person's total good. The solution of this
problem is not in your fighting the fact that you
love the man, or in trying to love less, but to
love more. the kind of love that the Lord has for
us. This is called agape love.


It is finding out that you truly can love someone
very deeply and yet allow him or her complete
freedom to respond to you in whatever way God
leads them to respond. The goal of love is not
always marriage. Sometimes, it's a beautiful
friendship between a man and a woman. Think about
this. As you love, whose interest are you seeking
to serve. yours or his? As you trust God and
yield your heart to him, let God direct your
relationships, you can be free from the leech of
expectations and free to let the Lord love that
man through you. You can pray wholeheartedly for
his happiness, secure in the knowledge that God
is going to fulfill all your needs, and that you
don't have to depend on a man to do it. you have
realized that only God can truly meet your needs.


You can say with our whole being "I love you, and
there are no string attached. I just want to be
around to support you in whatever way you and the
Lord want me to. I want to pray for you, share
your burdens, and be involved in your life
because I love you, but I'm not expecting
anything from you. I simply and truly want to see
you happy, fulfilled and joyful." That is serving
rather that being served. That is loving rather
that being loved


...coz this is the only kind of love i
know...when i say i love you...i really do...and
u owe me nothing in return...


ouchhh like i really wrote this...so me waaahhh
Currently listening to: lovin you
Currently reading: catcher in the rye
Currently feeling: ouchhh
Posted by FAITH20 at 10:28 PM | FAITHFULL

May 14th, 2004

The one that got away

Source: The Manila Times
By: Mark J. Macapagal

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom
you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with
...and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who(m)
everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime
partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually
argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do
with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle
down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When
you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who(m) you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big;
inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows.
It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens
you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and
you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your
approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were
here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is.
The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one
that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In
which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do
if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the
very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if
you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away..."
Posted by FAITH20 at 10:44 PM | 3 VICTORIOUS

my favorite cartoon characters

parehas na makulit....kasing kulit ko


Posted by FAITH20 at 11:11 PM | 2 VICTORIOUS

May 16th, 2004

tagal ko na sa baguio...

sanay na akong mglakad...
malaki na ang binti ko

sanay na ako sa malamig na panahon...
hindi ko na ma imagine tumira sa mainit na lugar

nandito na lahat friends ko
hirap na talaga makahanap ng katulad nila

dito na ang buhay ko
Currently feeling: takot umuwi
Posted by FAITH20 at 08:52 PM | 8 VICTORIOUS

May 18th, 2004

bago ulit!

salamat muli sa napakabait na ate Anna_Ganda sa napakagandang likha...
Posted by FAITH20 at 05:33 PM | 4 VICTORIOUS

May 19th, 2004

a letter to the person i was

while i was reading Richard bBach's A bridge across forever, i was very amazed when he was writing himself a letter of who he was 20 years ago...about soulmating, love and all those stuffs.

lead me to think of writing to myself of the person i was before i let myself succumb to the crazy world of love. and i think that this is how it will go.

dear self,

a few years back...you were so eager to love and be loved, you are too idealistic of what love will bring you, and anticipating happiness along.
you are dreaming of your perfect prince or your knight in his shining armor...even describing his attributes;him having a light complexion, brown eyes, clean nails, at least 5' 7", nice body frame. That he should posses the traits of a real gentleman, caring, loving, thoughtfull, honest, sensitive, funny to be with, intelligent, romantic. the guy who would swing with your moods, tag along on ocassions, sing you love songs when you want to. read you his own poems or paint your face and give it to you on your first year anniversary.

but i'll tell you now, the guy you are dreaming of, will remain as a dream...for he doesnt exist...
maybe you'll get some of the things you want in a man but not all of them and not all the time.

i have learned that to be loved has its consequences and pain is inevitable, it comes in pair love and pain. i dont want you to be disillusioned of what love seems to offer...as i was writing you, my heart has never been healed from the last time it was stabbed.

though pain made my heart weaker at the moment it was torn, it also made me stronger and wiser after it.

i am now on my realization...if i were you, i'll be more carefull and be more critical...for once you have given up your heart to someone, you can never take it back whole...

love,
the you with heart broken.
Currently listening to: toto's i'll be over you
Currently reading: a bridge across forever
Currently feeling: sentimental
Posted by FAITH20 at 09:30 PM as a favorite post | 4 VICTORIOUS

May 21st, 2004

dead end...

this past few days, i can't help but be melancholic, thinking of how my life was the past years, what i have turned into? i felt that i have travelled long and i'm tired...during the travel, i went through different courses which i have no hand in reaching its destination...roads that were difficult but necessary to reach wherever, that up to now i still have no idea. on every road that i took i saw to it that i did what was right and that i did not in any manner harmed other travellers...but i thougt wrong and then i did not know that you really cant please everybody. and on every road i anticipated its end... but only found walls. then teleported into another road, never did i had my closure. sometimes i want to go back to those roads and end them well, not into a dead end but in a branching road that will lead us to another road. to bid my sweet goodbye or say hello once again.
Currently listening to: patti austin's in my life
Currently reading: the house of seven gables
Currently feeling: deppresed
Posted by FAITH20 at 10:49 PM as a favorite post | 2 VICTORIOUS

how will i deal with losing in the future

"Thats what learning is after all: not whether we lose the game, but how we lose and how we've changed because of it and what we take away from it that we never had before, to apply to other games. Losing, in a curious way, is winning"
Currently feeling: up to a new challenge
Posted by FAITH20 at 11:03 PM | 1 VICTORIOUS

May 25th, 2004

invisible mode...

i am standing here
waiting...
to be noticed
even just a smile
from you will do

iam waiting here
looking...
for possibilities
that soon you you will
come to me and say
hello!

i am looking here
anticipating...
you'll approach me
and ask me how my day was

i am anticipating here
and hoping...
that you'll ask for my hand
then we'll walk by the sea

i am hoping here
still waiting...
for you to notice that
i am here
just here
waiting,
looking,
anticipating,
hoping...
Currently feeling: nothing
Posted by FAITH20 at 09:19 PM as a favorite post | 2 VICTORIOUS

May 26th, 2004

inggit ako!!!

kanina nglalakad ako sa session kasama ng friends ko, nakita namin yung lovers na taong grasa na matagal na ding nagsasama...buti pa sila
Currently feeling: inggit
Posted by FAITH20 at 09:27 PM | 6 VICTORIOUS

May 27th, 2004

hayyy....

HASH(0x8b14b70)
Rick Price - HEAVEN KNOWS
you're obviously not in good terms with your
special someone now. you're depressed and you
wish that you could turn back the hands of
time... back to those good old days. still, in
you sparks a little hope for you and him/her.
you should not let go of that small hope but be
patient. it will come back to you. if it won't,
something better will.


Which Song would Suit your Lovelife?
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Posted by FAITH20 at 08:18 PM | 1 VICTORIOUS

SHUT UP!!!!!

i would just like to agree with suzzette pido about too much blab on the congress' hearing regarding the presidential canvass. As clearly shown on our television Dilangalen was already mentioning things that are supposed to be mentioned during the actual canvassing. this grandstanding will not help. iam not pro-pandak knor pro-panday as i had stated on my past entries. i would just like this thing over in the soonest possible time.

Posted by FAITH20 at 08:41 PM | 7 VICTORIOUS