TINTINABULATION

i no longer long for your kisses

for your touch

and your caress

 

i no longer want to be next to you

to be taken care of

to be loved

 

i no longer need you

miss you

want you

 

for i am stronger now

call me a slut...and i will never react

is it bad to rest on your laurels?

i am tired and this exasperation leads me to desparation. is it of laziness or i just learned to be contended. anyway this state of imbroglio will surely pass...just another day, and who knows i might be up again with something new

i am going no where...

it is not that i dont know the way,
only confused where to go.

i am numb,

not because i cant feel anything
but in imbroglio of mixed pain, madness and sadness


i cant think,

at this point everything is pointless
so many thoughts raging inside my head

i need some rest
but i cant

life is so unfair... like ive been played by a master pulling me on strings...manipulated

songs, people, places, pictures etc. reminds us of the past. it may scratch old wounds but it will also bring back old cheers. i guess it's universal, everything has its pair, has its contrast. take away one and you'll never appreciate the other.

i've been counting days more to go before christmas, usually get exited, but know what? i cant feel the usual nostalgic feeling i have whenever the december air touches my skin. by this time ishould be packaging gifts for all the dear ones around me, but believe it i havent gone shopping yet. am i getting old?

naku namn si "reming"...

signal # 1
pahirap sa mangagawa... kailangan ko pa tuloy mag render ot at magmonitor, peligroso

signal # 2
di ako makapag aral... napapahiya na ako sa law school, samahan mo ng manakanakang pagbugso ng hangin sa bwiset na prof ko na walang ginawa kundi mag terrorize

signal # 3
masamang balita... madami sa mga kaibigan ko ang depressed dahil sa result ng board exam nila, nahihila tuloy ang hanging habagat ko (lungkot)

Exams nanaman araw-araw...huhuhu hirap mag aral...may trabaho pa....huhuhu letseng criminal law yan

"Beautiful things have to end to make way for more beautiful things to happen"